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Lessons We Shouldn’t Have to Teach

slice-of-life_individualThis Monday was a typical Monday morning… until it wasn’t.

I’m hanging out in kindergarten with some ‘budding scientists’ who are talking about shelter as a human need.  They are discussing houses, apartments, and even tents they’ve used as shelters. One child raises her hand, “They even have shelters. They’re for people who don’t have shelters.” This led to the acknowledgment that not everyone is lucky enough to have a home of their own and so it is good that we have places called shelters.  This could have been a mature enough conversation for 5 year olds, but sadly we had to turn to an even more grave matter. We had to shift our concept of shelter significantly.

At 9:30 we were scheduled to practice a lock-down drill.  The teacher was amazing in her matter-of-fact  handling of a potentially terrifying topic. She reminded them where to go, hide,  and basically hunker down until we got the “all clear” message.  She reminded them to stay quiet and not move around.

The first questions were easier to answer.”No, we can’t use the restroom.  Yes, you can get a drink after. No, just leave your things at your seat.

The next, not so much. “Well, sometimes we just need to practice things to keep us safe. We have to be quiet so people won’t know we are in here.

Then questions were replaced by thoughts and fears spoken aloud. “Well, if a bank robber came and bank robbed our school we have to hide so he doesn’t rob us.”  “Well if they hear’d us they could come and get us.”  “Who?”  “What if they hear us?” “What would happen if they see us?

Then came the announcement to lock down. We calmly walked to our hiding place (which I won’t disclose) and scrunched ourselves down to be as tiny and quiet as possible. No one giggled the way 5 year olds usually do. They looked around at their teachers and each other. The teacher practiced her  whisper roll-call.

It was then I noticed two little boys with their eyes closed and their hands in a Shuni Mudra pose. They were using a calming, in-the-moment exercise their teacher had shared with them. It was beyond adorable.

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Looking at these sweet children and thinking about what we were doing struck me as so pathetic. How heart wrenching it was that we had to take time to teach our students how to avoid being killed or injured by intruders in our schools rather than engaging in  more math, literacy, science, or even mindfulness. This is not a lesson my college prep, student teaching, or even 30 years of experience prepared me for. It was a lesson learned from the tragedy of others that I pray we are never ‘tested’ on.

I hope that those quick to judge schools and teachers so harshly are one day enlightened as to the tremendous responsibility we embrace in raising these kiddos-body, mind, and soul, and can appreciate how difficult that can be some days.

Namaste.

A Series of Fortunate Events

fullsizeoutput_6266I have been keeping a journal for most of my life. It started with small diaries that locked with the simple key (that could be substituted with a fingernail). When I was young they would fullsizeoutput_6265capture what time I woke, what I ate, the score of the Cubs game, and a sentence or two about my day. An entire week of my life could fit on a 2 page spread. I liked the repetitive nature of their entries and the simplicity of my days.img_9294.jpg

By middle and high school I graduated to full-page diary entries that often captured my scores on tests  or other grades, how volleyball, basketball, or softball practice went that day, and who I sat by at lunch.  Riveting reading, no doubt.

There are gaps in journaling over the years when I couldn’t (or didn’t) find the time to document those moments of my life. They marched on regardless. On the verge of motherhood, I knew I wanted to capture life and contain it img_9295somewhere so that I wouldn’t forget.  I began incorporating photos, ticket stubs, and other mementoes with my entries. Now they are half images, half words on most days.

Each time I fill up a journal it feels like closing a book on a part of my life. I flip back through the 7 or 8 months that are captured within and relive moments, feelings, tastes, and sounds. There is something sacred in finishing a book and knowing that it represents the memories of the past and then opening a blank book and recognizing that it holds the promise of a future.

So today I sit here between past and future with a blank book in one hand and a pen in the other.  I am closing the book on a part of my life and beginning another. My life is more than a trilogy, quadrilogy, or heptalogy…

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Perhaps, A Series of Fortunate Events?

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Random Acts of Zen

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My life is full. At times I admit that it is busy. I believe that life is not a rehearsal and we are allowed one shot to ‘get it right’ so I want to experience as much as I can and try not to waste it.   I strive for a sense of harmony with work and play, and I am lucky that my work is mostly a great source of joy for me. I stopped thinking about “balance” as being equal distribution of time and energy, but embrace it as more of a consonance between work and play.

What I still still struggle with however is “being in the moment” and fully present with whatever I am doing. I am much better with this than I’ve been in the past, but it is definitely a work in progress. I’m sure we all do it. I find myself planning lessons in my head while taking a walk, remembering to reply to an email while working on my National Boards, checking on the progress of April the Giraffe while watching a movie with my family. To be sure these are little things and I am able to get back on task rather quickly, and in some moments I don’t really mind.

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Sometimes Zen opportunities trot across my backyard.

But there are some moments, new experiences or instances of awe, when it is easy to be fully present and focused and attentive. It is during these moments that I feel most connected to this life, to this time I am given. These moments can come out of the blue and if I am not mindful I might dismiss them or they can be planned and savored. I see them as opportunities to be awake and engaged and present.

I often say to myself, “This.” This is my signal to engage with what I am experiencing, to call on my senses to raise my awareness, to focus on the slice of time before me. I consider these moments of ZEN.  To me, Zen involves seeing and experiencing things without the distortion created by my own thoughts. I try to let the experience wash over me and not filter it through past experience.

To be sure I do not walk through this life in a perpetual state of mindfulness. But when I get these Zen episodes I use them as a gentle reminder that each moment is really a gift if I stop to acknowledge it. What makes my life richest are often the things I forget to notice, that I take for granted.

So I am grateful for reminders. I continue to practice. I strive to be present. And I don’t criticize or chastise myself when I am not. I know that every moment offers a new opportunity to tune in and zen out.  I know that “slicing” helps me with this practice. All month I am tuning in to life experiences with a heightened sense of awareness and gratitude. I am embracing random acts of Zen.

I hope that slicing helps you with this practice as well. May you all find moments of zen in your day today.

Documentary Poetry

slice-of-life_individualLast September my daughter Bailey moved away to college. As anyone who has gone through this knows, the transition in your life is profound.  For 17 years I was a part of her daily life and she, mine. Knowing that growing up and growing apart is normal and that she is happy and succeeding is a sign that our parenting actually worked, helps a bit. It’s still change, and change can be hard.

I wanted to find a way to share our lives with her beyond our texts, video chats, or phone calls. I wanted to remember this year for the important time it was. Not only were changes going on in our personal lives, but unless you’ve been hiding under a rock, you might have noticed some major shifts and events in our country as well.

She’s busy  studying and building a life. How can I succinctly share my life with her each week? How could I document events, reactions, emotions, hopes, concerns in a way that doesn’t overwhelm her?  …….POETRY.

With an economy of words, poems can express so much with so little.  Poetry encourages me to reflect on the significant ideas I want to share and captures a point in time I want to remember. My poems aren’t great. They are frequently quick writes and not revised. But they are a “from the heart” correspondence each week that I send to her and I keep a copy  in a book that will memorialize our first year apart.

So as I blog this month, I will share some of these poems. They are truly Slices of  My Life in this year of change.  Here’s an example of a slice in our year:

Nevertheless, She Persisted

Reading a letter

From a time not distant enough

From a woman not honored enough

She was warned.

Speaking the words

That were relevant then

That are relevant now

She was given an explanation.

Challenging the privilege

Of the old white man

Protecting another old white man

Nevertheless, She Persisted.

And so we carry on with our lives, and I write to remember. Here’s to Documentary Poetry!

Finding Myself in Hot Water

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I love to find myself in hot water. It’s my moment of zen.  And it’s my hot tub.

Actually it’s a hot tub in name only…literally, a tub that holds hot water.  Don’t imagine a spa with jets and bubbles that massage tired muscles.  It is a 30 year old hand-me-down sans bells-and-whistles, but it is my space to connect with nature and the “wild Maine nightlife”.

Each season I feel more in touch with the natural world because of my time here. And each year these moments become more cherished.img_9016

In winter the atmosphere is so dry and crisp that millions more stars become visible. The night sky is alight with twinkles.  I watch satellites float across the expanse. I catch shooting stars streaking through the black. I pick out constellations as they journey across the winter sky. The blanket of snow reflects the moonlight so brilliantly that at times it feels more like day than night. And the quiet-it is oh, so quiet. Only interrupted by an occasional snowmobile, coyote, or fox in the distance.

In spring the sounds begin breaking through the sleep of winter. My ears ache to catch the first peeper of the season. An owl hoots from the woods across the field. A woodcock’s nasally peet calls at dusk and the drips of melting snow can be heard long into April.

Processed with Snapseed.In summer the days are longer and twilight tends to be my hot tub time.  I watch the sunlight cling to the tops of trees. Orange and pink compete for the landscape of the evening sky. I wait to see which robin will be the last to sing out as I watch the fireflies begin their dance over the field. I hear the giggles and shrieks of neighborhood kids allowed to stay out late. Sometimes a rumble or a flash will cut short my time, or my kids and their friends want me to share, but I don’t mind.

In autumn I note the changing silhouettes of the trees as they become near-naked week fullsizeoutput_565after week. The air grows cooler and the water feels warmer. Twilight comes earlier so my dips become darker and I stare at the horizon waiting for the arrival of the harvest moon. Life becomes busier and this time more precious.

The seasons pass and I soak it all up. Here’s to the weekend and some much-needed hot tub time.

“I feel lonely…”

slice-of-life_individualThis week I was “interviewing” some kindergarten students about their reading and writing attitudes/feelings.  They would choose from one of three faces to respond to general questions such as, “How do I feel when I am reading?” or “How do I feel when I am writing? I also asked some specifics to get feedback on some foundational skills.

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It was revealing to see how they perceived their skill, some aligning closely to demonstrated ability, and some filled with hope and optimism.

Then I asked students “What’s easy about reading/writing?” as well as “What’s hard about reading/writing?” Lots of answers had to do with reading and drawing pictures and making books, or even trouble spelling certain words.  But it was one comment that got me looking at our young students with greater empathy this week. 

When I asked Dani* “What is hard about writing?” She looked down at the table and said. “I feel lonely.”

I didn’t have a response for that other than, “You do?”  She nodded and then looked up at me.  I asked, “What do you do?”

She lifted her shoulders in a quick shrug. “Someone helps me.”

That’s the first time I’ve heard a child describe what I have sometimes felt as a writer, this sense of loneliness. The realization that it is just me and that page.  For the rest of that day and in the days since I found myself looking for signs of loneliness or joy in the faces of young writers.  It is a gentle reminder to me that skill alone is not the intended learning. We teach the reader, not the reading. We teach the writer, not the writing.

Being a part of a writing community is one of the best ways I know to combat writer’s loneliness.  I’m grateful to be a part of one, I want all of our students to have that sense of community as well. Thank you, to all of you slicers who create such a supportive #SOL17 community for one another this month.

 

 

*not her name

Eyes Wide Open This Time

slice-of-life_individualLast year I joined the Slice of Life Challenge with no clue what I was in for.  Sure, I thought “This will be fun. I’ll practice my writing a little more purposefully, get feedback as well as inspiration from others.”  Well, it was fun! I was more purposeful (beyond what I could have anticipated) and the feedback and inspiration was nothing I could have imagined.

At times it was exhausting. I was overwhelmed and struggling to post some days. At times it was exhilarating. I couldn’t wait to get home and share an experience or idea. But what I couldn’t have anticipated was how differently I experienced life for the month of March. Suddenly everything was more real, vivid, and colorful. I felt more alive.  I saw everything as a story to be told and it gave the small things such importance. It graced me with such a sense of gratitude for each conversation, experience, or emotion.

I’m trying to start this #SOL17 with no expectations-I find that’s the best way to eliminate (or reduce) frustration and disappointment.  But I DO have a clue for what I am in for and I am ready to slice with my eyes (and my heart) wide open.

I am grateful to all of my fellow slicers who will inspire me this month.  I am especially excited that 3 other teachers in my district will be slicing as first timers this year. I have always admired them and this raises my respect to new heights. I will read far more slices than I’ll have time to respond to, so just know that your words are being received and appreciated and your energy is infectious.

Happy Slicing!

Plan Ahead to “Slice”!

slice-of-life_individualUPDATE: I will begin blogging every day in the month of March for the #SOL17 (Slice of Life Challenge) I won’t be posting about teaching pedagogy, instructional ideas, or book recommendations.  Rather, I’ll be sharing “slices” of small moments, poems, photos, that reflect what is important or ‘in the moment’ for me in the month of March.  I’ll go back to my regularly scheduled blogs once a week in April. If you’d like to “slice” I have information in this post to help get you going!

This March marks the 10th year of The Slice of Life Challenge  hosted by Two Writing Teachers. The idea is to write a small “Slice of Life” every day in the month of March. The  Two Writing Teachers believe, “Teachers who write regularly can better support the students they teach in writing workshops daily.” I couldn’t agree more.

Last year was my first in attempting this challenge and I have to say it was truly a ‘game changer’ for me.  Knowing that I would be writing a little each day not only kept my skills sharp and my ideas flowing, but I began to frame experiences as stories.  Everything around me suddenly became seeds for writing.  I saw my world in a whole new way-I began to appreciate others’ experiences with greater clarity and compassion.

I lived a writerly life!

I strongly encourage every teacher I know to give this challenge a try. You may not be able to write every single day, but even if you wrote several times a week I guarantee you will think about writing with such a different perspective. You will see the writers in your classroom with greater appreciation and empathy.

The big idea is that you write about what is important to you: a moment in your day, a memory from your past, a poem, a short story, a collection of words or images that expresses a “slice of your life”.  Then you post it on your blog and post the link on the Two Writing Teachers Blog (https://twowritingteachers.org ) so that other slicers can read and comment on your posts. You also agree to read and comment on at least 3 other slicers writing each day. That way you are truly part of a writing community! Believe me, you will love getting feedback from others!

All Participants click here for PARTICIPANT INFORMATION FORM starting Feb 19

First Time Slicers CHECK OUT THIS LINK that goes live on Feb 20.

Not sure you can do it?  Here are a few tips to help…

  • Read through the directions before March 1 so you can be ready
  • Set up a FREE blog on Blogger, Edublogs, or WordPress (click HERE for easy tutorial)
  • Write some slices ahead of time- there will be days you can’t carve out 10 minutes to write, I get that.  Have some slices ready to go that you can quickly post.
  • Don’t want to create a blog? Post a slice to Facebook with the hashtag #SOL17 and use the Slice of Life Logo as your image, you won’t be officially in The Slice of Life Challenge but it’s better than not slicing at all!)
  • Don’t quit if you miss some days-sure writing every day is great, but living a writerly life is a greater goal!
  • Invite some of your friends to take the challenge with you.  We all know that accountability partners help us with our goals.
  • Read other “Slices” for inspiration and ideas-it’s probably not as daunting as you might think when you can see what it looks like.

Not convinced? Here are my Take-Aways from last year:

  1. Stories are everywhere-seriously…EVERYWHERE!
  2. We are not the center of the universe.
  3. Some days writing is hard.
  4. There is no standardized unit of measure for a “slice”
  5. Some slices whet our appetites for writing!
  6. Getting comments on your writing makes you feel good.
  7. Writing gets easier when it becomes a habit.
  8. Being a part of a writing community enhances your writing identity.
  9. Writing shapes the way you think about the world.
  10. I am going to miss the intensity of pulling story from experience each day.

Happy Writing!!

What’s On My Book Radar?

screen-shot-2017-02-18-at-9-22-24-amThe Writing Strategies Book by Jennifer Serravallo

If you are a nerdy teacher like me you have probably been waiting with baited-breath for this resource! Just like her companion text The Reading Strategies Book, Jen Serravallo has compiled an amazing series of lesson ideas to meet the needs of of literacy learners from K-8. She builds off the work of Lucy Calkins and Carl Anderson to offer concrete and specific teaching points to move writers forward. A ‘must-have’ resource for writing teachers!

I also think this could be a great resource for SLICERS to try out some writing techniques during the Slice of Life Challenge in March!

Happy Reading!

Don’t Miss World Read Aloud Day!

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This Thursday (Feb 16) is World Read Aloud Day presented by Lit World ; a non-profit organization started by literacy leader Pam Allyn, whose mission is to tackle illiteracy worldwide. This Thursday you can join a global community of readers.  Many classrooms across the world will be skyping with authors, inviting in guest readers, and sharing their love of stories with one another.   You and your class could be a part of that global event.

Here is the link to the WORLD READ ALOUD EVENT GUIDE.

Here is a link to BOOKMARKS  and the Sticker LOGO.

You could try to book an author via Skype (don’t delay)

Follow along on Twitter #WRAD17

You can watch the Book Whisperer herself talk to you about World Read Aloud Day!

Do as much or as little as your time and schedule allow.  You can register your class and be an “official participant”.  You can see all the locations in the world where classrooms will be joining in. Help your students feel a part of something BIG. Help them feel connected to other children in the world with a common love for books and reading.

REGISTER HERE

HAPPY READING!

What’s On My Book Radar?

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I am so thrilled by the multitude of novels and stories-in-verse the past several years, and this one ranks right up near the top.  Nikki Grimes paints stories with such a select palette of words. She gets to the heart of Garvey’s thoughts, emotions, and desires with such clarity and precision-letting us see and experience the story through his eyes. We see Garvey grapple with the choice to be the boy his father wants him to be or be the person he truly is. You could finish this book in half an hour, but I recommend you slow down and savor it. And you probably won’t want to read it only once. I could see this book being a mentor to so many readers.

Do yourself a favor- get at least one copy of this book for yourself and one for International Book Giving Day!